My Little Boy!!

Meet Dominus Villa (Latin for Master of the house). We call him Dom or Dominus for short. My parents breed, raise, and show Saddlebred horses so I've grown up with them my whole life. He is our first baby boy so I claimed him as mine from day one! He's been in training for a year and a half now so I haven't seen him in forever. This is him at his very first show 2 weeks ago!! He placed 2nd!!! Because he is the Sh*t! That and he is very studly and talented!

**Oh and if you would like to buy him, the opening bid is $55,000. just fyi. If you ask me though...he is worth so much more.

My Beautiful and Very Entertaining Niece!

2 Videos my Sister and BIL posted on youtube of my niece, Maddie. Keep in mind she isn't even 2 yrs old yet! Gotta love my MooMoo!

Her Favorite Song and her Favorite Word!

More updates...

Ok First the most obvious! My page makeover! Only proves I have way too much time on my hands but I'm very please with how it turned out.

Next, a Daddy update. His first test came back and it was clear. Had something to do with the brain. I don't get into all the technical stuff, I'm just glad it was good news!!

My Girl T and I are going to float the river this weekend...WHOOHOO!! Lets hope we see some drunk crazies so I have some good blog material Monday! But I would totally settle for hot, half naked guys hitting on us....

And my other girl, TAYLOR has decided to bless the blogging world with her presence!! YAY!! Join me in Welcoming her @ blindspotbella

watch your step...

there are a lot of things going on here...

First I get an email from my best friend this am.

"I've got an appt with the dr at 4pm because I think I might be pregnant. I'm FREAKING out!! What do I do if I am? I have to keep it but then what?? OMG I'm so scared."

WOW! That came from left field. So I guess I'm in for some REALLY Good news at 4 or some Life changing sh*t!

Second, I'm sad to say My sis and niece are going home this weekend.

Things I won't quickly forget:

-the first time Maddie said my name

-the enormous crap she took that sent a long lasting aroma around my apartment for almost an hour.

-Maddie choosing me over Mommy!! More than once!! She loves me! What can I say, I ROCK!

-Trying to feed the ducks but realizing the bread was disappearing quicker than we could get the duck to the shore. Maddie was hungry!

I will miss her more than anything!! But already have my trip planned to visit them in July!

And...the Boy has continued to call and is now asking when I'm coming down to float the river with him. Always leaving my answer open and questionable, I honestly don't know what to think or do. I've read everyone's thoughts in my previous posts and I DON'T want to go if he just wants me to want him...and that's it! Blahh....the thought of that pisses me off!

Lastly....I'm happy and feeling cute today because I got some sweet new shoes yesterday. NOOO...not high priced Gucci stilettos. Actually these cool kicks came from Target!! And guess how much they were??? You never will......$12.99. And I don't care who bashes me. I don't buy just for the label. I liked these shoes so much I bought the other design too. AND YES, I'm wearing the black ones with my dress slacks today...who dares to say something?!?!

ok that's all for today!

Chapter 2 out of The Book of Allie's Woes

OK Jamie (Oh! How Lovely) inspired this post with her recent troubles.

Just another lovely story out of The Book of Allie's Woes....

In January of '07 about a week after the X and I split my mom calls to check up on me. Well somewhere in the middle of our convo she reveals to me that she is thinking of divorcing my dad....WHAA?!?! Where did this come from? "Allie, its been brewing for some time" Well she went on to tell me she just didn't think it was right anymore and she wanted to take a trip to Tenn. to visit our horses, get away and think about things. Problem - our horse trainer, who is newly divorced, lives in Tenn.. Well my mom was quick to state they are just friends which I have ALWAYS believed to be true...but if I didn't trust my mom at this point I would think it was fishy. Plus I knew him very well and he was a cool guy.
OK back to my mom.....WHILE my life is in a million pieces all over my apartment floor my mom decided this very moment was the RIGHT time to tell me this?!?!? NOT COOL MOM!!! SO... DEVASTATED I WAS AGAIN!
Well of course I talked to my dad and he was lost and didn't understand. I know he was NOT happy that she was going to Tenn. alone too. Well nothing came of the trip but when she came back she was still gung-ho about the divorce. My dad would call me with any new information he had or when he was just sad. I got so many calls I could barely keep up and my mom was turning into a stranger I'd never met. First weird change in my mother...she got her belly button pierced. 2nd...she got long blonde hair extensions. 3rd... she bought a little black bmw sports car. Just SCREAMS MID-LIFE CRISIS if you ask me.

Well she ended up moving out and in with my Grandfather for about 6 months. Now he lives about 15 min from me. Sadly I wasn't even interested in seeing her so we never really met up while she lived there.

I'm not sure when the transition happened but I think somewhere down the road my mom realize she was going to LOOSE everything if she didn't stop her wild and free ways....so her and my dad started "dating" again.

Well I'm currently happy to report she moved back in a couple months ago and they are doing great....just in time for the bad new my dad received. I'm just glad she is there for him.

But let me tell you, this SUCKS for anyone on the outside looking in. I just wanted to SHAKE my mom and tell her to WAKE UP! WHO ARE YOU!
Its like something just got into her and she wanted to be young and free again as if she never had the ability to do it before. <-- which in a way she didn't b/c she had my sister and I both before she was 22. I couldn't imagine having to toddlers running around me right now...YICKS!

So my conclusion...Do not marry young even if you think you are ready! You haven't had enough FREE time to find yourself and enjoy the SINGLE life....
You are silly if you think this is not true and you will only find out.....hmmmm around the age of 44?!?!?! haha!

I hate to think this happens everyday and most of the couples do not get back together. Its just heartbreaking the rate of divorce these days....so sad.

1 step forward 10 steps back!

With each new day I've grown even more excited about life and the new adventures I've decided to pursue....up 'til yesterday.

I was having a great day...regardless of the horrid rain. I was in Circuit city buying a new TV and getting a new video card for my computer (Yes I've been living in the stone ages for a few weeks b/c my video card burnt up!). Well, as I was standing in line my mom calls. "Do you have time to talk?" she asks. "Well give me a few minutes and I will", "ok". I get in my car to head home when my mom goes on to tell me about my Dad's multiple doctor visits...which she previously told me was "just" for his high blood pressure. "Just a cover up" she said b/c my Dad wasn't ready to reveal the truth to anyone, for fear of being disowned or ostracized. I was shocked and so sad all at the same time. Ok I know at this point you want to know what it is that he has but I'm not ready to reveal it right now especially since my dad is not comfortable with it. All I can say is it is chronic and depending on the progression, which will be revealed in his upcoming test results, there is a high % chance he could die from it. This would be the point in time where I started bawling my eyes out. My mom just said I don't want you to take this lightly b/c it is very serious, we just don't know the severity yet.

So my upbeat energetic mood has quickly been replaced by worry and sadness....

Please keep my Daddy in your prayers.