Too many adventures to list....

not sure what happened this weekend to make me think of my blog but here I am.

Its been a long road.

to my last comments:

No- I obviously didn't die from my bike, I've lived and well!! The bike is my baby and gives me an escape whenever I need it

No- I was not blogging nor was I even viewing it, I just kinda walked away. If I remember correctly, it happened around the time I got promoted so I think I was laying low...and eventually just stayed low.

ok so let me summarize the last 6 or so months.

June- bought my bike, got a promotion
July/August - Blah
Sept - Hurricane Ike destroyed my apartment....spent the rest of the month moving and dealing with insurance.
Oct - got my wisdom teeth pulled :-/ oouch!
Nov - family time I guess...nothing too crazy
Dec - more family time!!
Jan - I don't remember
and not Feb...well it just started so I'm hoping for something exciting!!

I'm sure I've missed some things but I will try to post up in time.

Hope everyone is doing well this new year.

comfortable

WHOOOHOOO!!!! For the first time in my post college life I'm not penny pinching, paying my bills last minute, living without cable and Internet, or starving myself.

I'm one of those college graduates that was somewhat taken care of in college but let completely go the day after I received my diploma. So I got my job, signed a lease and started MY LIFE on my own pretty quick. I learned that having a house phone was a complete waste of money I didn't have, roman noodles were my best friend and my apartment complex was run by IDIOTS b/c they gave me 4 months of free cable I definitely couldn't afford(HBO and all)!! Don't worry I didn't complain!! hehe shhhhh....

So, I've finally made it to "comfortable"! I can have everything I need and some of what I want and not feel stressed over tomorrows dollar. I cannot express to you how excited I am to finally make it to this point in my life. I love being able to just go shopping, buy my friends a drink, or cover the whole tab without feeling the heat from my checking account. Its definitely been a long hard road to this point....didn't help that I dated broke guys so when I wanted to go out I always had to pay for myself or both of us! Let just say A LOT HAS CHANGED!!! haha!
~*~I'm not saying she's a gold digger.... but she ain't messin' with no broke n***a.~*~
(Yeap! Kanye is here on Friday and T and I are so there!!)

So now I'm looking to start an online savings account to start putting away some money for the bike (might wait a little while longer before I buy) . I want to put a pretty nice down payment down on it.

OK SO THIS IS A QUESTION FOR YOU! I need great recommendations for online savings accounts...in the states of course. I wouldn't even be sad to leave my current bank. My checking account services are not so great anymore.
TIA!!!!

I'm AWAKE and ALIVE!

So I made it through the day yesterday but not before something almost REALLY bad happened to me.

So I left work a little early and was driving down a 6 lane(3x3) road in the middle lane( not a freeway, more like a business road). The light in front of me turned red and there was already a line of cars in my lane so I decided to move into the right lane where there was only 1 car in front of me. So I turned on my blinker and progressed slowly to the right....when WHOOSH! The Plymouth Prowler that was previously behind me was doing the same move I was but at a much faster rate of speed. The woman was so fast and I was so slow that my front right bumper touched her back left tire. There was a little noise but I didn't feel anything...regardless I followed her to the Walgreen's parking lot to check out the damage, if any. We got out and I apologized...even though in my mind I knew she was driving WAY too fast and did the same thing I did minus the blinker! Still I knew I was sleepy and didn't catch her quick move which on a good day I'm sure I would have. So viewing the damage I was pleased to see nothing on her little buggie of a car. There was a rubber mark that she wiped right off. Then looking at my poor baby Z there was a bigger mark but I was glad to see it was just black ArmorAll from her tire since she had just left the car wash. THANK YOU GOD!! This was seriously the kick I needed to get my butt home alive! I swore at work I knew something bad was going to happened...and knowing how sleepy I was I figured it would be something in the car. I'm just so grateful that was it...and I wasn't on the main HWY.

Lesson for today...be grateful!

And Here's to my awesome Territory Sales Manager who brought in McD's for breakfast!! WHOOHOO! YUM!

lack of dating...

I've had a major gap in my dating life lately....main cause.....simply me. I'm just not interested. Right after the big break with the bf(post1) about a year and half ago I started getting real close to a guy I grew up with, RT. He was and still is my best friend but we got a little hot and heavy for a few months. To my disappointment, it starting going cold due to work and scheduling. He lived in our hometown and I was living in the big city...hour and a half drive. Well soon thereafter he got a job in the big city close to me so naturally he started staying with me a few nights out of the week. Our relationship was starting to look like a relationship... up til he revealed he was accepted back into college and he was leaving in a month to finish(3hours away). Now, we hadn't made it to the "OMG I can't live without you" stage so I was happy for him. Us being such close friends, I could be nothing less than supportive, it was definitely the right move for him. Well we talked everyday for about 2-3 weeks til the inevitable fight. It was his birthday and I had been planning on going down to see him for weeks. Well I got a brief phone call telling me I don't have to come b/c he has homework and a test to study for so he can't entertain me all weekend BUT I can still come IF I WANT. "Well do you want to see me?", I asked.... YOU READY FOR THIS....being part of the guy clan he simply replied, "I don't care." At this point my eyes about popped out of my head and I quickly ended the conversation. We didn't speak for, wow, almost a month. He's been gone for 3-4 months now and somewhere in there our daily texts turned into calls and it hasn't stopped. RT has even cracked jokes about meeting our daily call time quota. What strikes me is that he is the one calling me everyday, be it at work or on my drive home. I still haven't seen him since he left but he recently invited me to come down and go to the river with him when it warms up....oh and he might be in town this weekend, and if so, he wants to meet up.
Now, he knows I haven't dated or made out with anyone since we split ways so does this mean he is interested in me or is this just him repairing our friendship. I don't want to over step my boundaries but in all honestly, I love him to death no matter what! He is amazing and sadly even if we don't work out as a couple he is still someone I would consider "marriage material".

**my qualifications for "Marriage Material"
GREAT sense of humor - super outgoing!
Family oriented
Humble
Athletic - and NO not a gym freak! Just a little flag football here and there.
Driven - with goals and reaching for them.
Attractive - no necessarily to everyone else...just me!
Bed fun compatibility - yes this is probably what you think it is


I'm not saying I haven't dated because I'm stuck on RT, really I've had good excuses to say no, mostly other pre-set plans. **Side note...still never been asked out in person. I was asked out by two guys...wait 3!!! I know them all threw friends and the "asking out" was done over gmail!!

I've actually been enjoying all this single time with my girls. I feel like its helped me find myself.
BUT...I do seem to find myself comparing the guys that like me to him.

What do you gather from this...do I need a serious slap in the face!

Well be it with him or someone else I have to move on sometime....and soon would be good.

~a simple girl with big issues~

Sighting of my FAVORITE married Couple

Reference my very first post to get a full understanding...

SOOOOOOOOO with the luck I've been having lately it was only fitting that my weekend end with a sighting of my TWO FAVORITE PEOPLE!

I was out and about Sunday enjoying a stroll through the mall (actually I was wasting time before I met up with a friend). Well, I was in the middle of a text when I looked up at 3 people walking directly in front of me to enter the store I was passing. I first locked eyes with the X BEST FRIEND, she gave me a blank OMG look then a half smile with a "Hi". I of course smiled real big (b/c I knew I was looking HOTT with my sunburn and new hair!! HAHA!) and said "HEY" back, all before I realized THE X BF was right in front of her, almost in the store. Of course we locked eyes (a little longer than I was comfortable with) plus he had this weird big smile on his face. Not a second later I thought...this is enough, if not too much talking for me, so I continued walking and went right back to my text message. WHEEW ...never thought I would have survived the first sighting but I DID IT! and with class and a sense of ease if you ask me.

btw-the 3rd person was her 9yr old son....I thought more about him when we parted ways than either of them. I used to babysit him and all of us, including my X used to go to the park and hang out. Something tells me that poor boy is going to be all screwed up when he gets older....but I can only pray he isn't. Made me happy when he smiled at me....maybe they hadn't skewed his image of me.....YET!


OH!OH! and I have to mention...someone looked to have put on some weight haha! Her pants were looking a little tight! hehe ok I'll be nice....maybe she is prego!!haha!

Me in pure form...

Ok since my first post was so drab...I'm writing a new, more upbeat post on my first day.

Its a beautiful sunny day and I'm actually quite chipper today!
I'm not sure if its because I'm in the running for a promotion at work or if I'm FINALLY just happy with where I am in my life. Being single is not as bad as people make it out to be. I haven't even been on a date in months but I'm glad. I've had more time to figure out who I am, alone... just me! I've grown closer than ever with my friend, my mom and my sister who I used to hate back in HS! haha Its amazing how time and space can help you grown together!

At first I found myself sitting at home on the couch watching TV because I didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. Now today I look at my week and I don't have one free day! A meeting tonight, a dinner date with friends tomorrow, rodeo or wine tasting on Friday (havent made up my mind...nice to have choices), and another wine tasting on Saturday. Blows me away at how my life has changed and for the better in the past few months. Its not all about a guy...its about me and the things I enjoy and what I want to do. I love this, I love being single!

So this is me in pure form...and I'm happy!
:-D
(Me smiling REALLY BIG!)

A Fresh Start

Ok this being my first post...I'm going to go all out.

2007 in a nutshell was a BAD year for me. Where to begin?? How about in Jan? Ok so I started 2007 going to my best friends wedding with my boy friend of two years. The man I knew I was going to marry and we had both made that very clear to his family and mine. Maybe looking at rings clued everyone in. Well now is about the time I should tell you about one of my good girl friends who happened to live across the way from me in my apartment complex, therefore we saw each other often. Plus she went to the same church me and the BF went to.
Well about 2 weeks into January the bf and I started arguing over weird petty stuff and decided maybe we should take some time and space to make sure we still want to get married. So I laid low but we still talked everyday...and even saw each other ofter.

Well about 2-3 weeks later I walk to my car to go to the store and to my horror I see who else but my bf (or whatever he is at this point) sneaking up the BACK side of my friends apartment building. Well since she lives on the font side and I knew at this point he was going to see her, I waited down stairs for him to walk back forward on the 3 floor so I could see him knock on her down....and about a minute later there he was! I was sitting in my car at this point and I didn't even have to honk...he saw me, he knew I was pissed and what did he do. He waved a very nervous low wave. Now I drive a pretty fast sports car so lets just say I speed off with a lead foot!!!

I was so sad and so upset and so devastated! My bf and my good friend...I would have never guessed. Maybe it was the fact that she has a 7 year old son or the fact that he would talk negatively about her and how she lives her life and now he is DATING HER! Why are men such wimps....no balls to tell me the truth or to even separated himself enough to make me believe we were not still getting married! I had no clue.

So lets move ahead about 5 months, I decided to move far away btw! Broke my lease to do so.
ok so I get a phone call from the x's old best friend who YES dated my old good friend. We used to go on double dates. Well his news was all but calming. THEY WERE ENGAGED! And there were pic on their myspace of the ring...well to my shock that ring sure looked a lot like the one I picked out!!!!! So devastated AGAIN!

ok skip forward to Dec. 1. I get another phone call from the same guy. They are getting married this weekend!!!! WHAT?!?!? It hasn't even been a YEAR since we split.
DEVI STATED AGAIN!!!!

Then last but not least I go to their myspace at the end of the month to see if they posted wedding pics just too see what she looked like...b/c I was mad and curious and wanted to find something to pick fun of! Well I was shocked to see they had posted pics from their Honeymoon and WHERE THEY WENT!! To Banff, Alberta Canada!! Where we had gone on a trip together with his parents just a year earlier!!! WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO TAKE YOUR NEW WIFE THERE?!?!?!
Whats weird is she knew all of this b/c she was my friend! She also new what the ring I picked out looked like. Why did she not have a problem with any of this?!?!? I know why b/c she just wanted to get married and he is controlling and wanted everything the same as how we had planned it!!! PSYCHO!!

Ok vent over...don't judge me too much this was a very traumatic experience....worse than any drama movie I have ever seen...and this is just the short version.