truckin...

Today is going to be one hard work day for me. Not because of what I do for a living or the work load I have to complete by days end BUT just getting through the day AWAKE! At this very moment as I stare at the computer monitor my eyes water at the thought of staying open for 8 more hours. My uncontrollable yawns keep catching my coworker's attention and his only response is to laugh at me...little does he know my drowsiness will only force him to pick up my slack! HAHA!

No, this is not of my doing, not from a late night of partying nor a late night with a Boy! Oh how I wish.... no, this comatose state was caused by my 19 month old niece who is by far the best baby in the world but this weekend she had a fever. It was one of those fevers that goes away with medicine but come back every time it wears off....which just so happened to be midnight and 4am. I couldn't help but feel so bad for her because she was burning up and crying nonstop but in turn that meant NO SLEEP for me.

Let me just add, this post has taken me WAY TOO LONG to post b/c I keep having to re-read it....thank god I did though b/c some of it didn't make much sense and whomever chose to read it would probably think I was drunk (which I typed "drink" the first time around) or just dumb(which no doubt I am in this condition)!

Good Morning All.

I'M LOST!!

Why are boys so difficult?!?!

text from RT night before last:
"Guess we're not buddies anymore"
Me:
"Why? Did I do something?"


about an hour later I get a phone call...
RT:
" Hey you haven't called in a few days"
Me:
"Well you have a phone too"
RT:
"Well I knew I had been calling you a lot lately so I was waiting for you to call me"
Me:
" What? Why? that's just gay!! Now I know I told you when we started talking again I was going to give you plenty of space since you said you were trying to stay focused on school, Plus my sister and niece are in town so I've been a little busy."
RT:
"Oh yeah, well no biggie I was just joking with you. I never thought we weren't buddies anymore."

***This is as close to WORD TO WORD as its going to get

Ok well he has called me twice since then!!!

Now A Question for all you boys!!! WHY ARE YOU SO DIFFICULT!?!?!?!
What does this mean? Is he just trying to see where I stand? Is he disappointed I haven't been calling him like he has been calling me? Should I call him more? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN!?!?!
I'M LOST! :-(

The Crazy Radio Caller....

Yes, that's me, at least lately it is since I've been spending so much time in my car for work. Well a few weeks back I heard a song on the internet called Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis, a young girl from Britain who Simon Cowell named the winner of their X-Factor show. (More info @ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leona_Lewis ) Well I called the radio station to see if it was released to play in the US yet and one of the young interns told me YES, but no one really requests it! He told me if I wanted to hear it I would need to request it during On Demand @ 12-1! I was so excited so I called later on that day during the allotted time and Mat the main DJ picked up. When I requested the song he said "GREAT SONG!" I was like "HELLO I KNOW!" Well we chatted for a few and he said he would definitely remember me when he plays the song. I was like "GREAT!" Well sitting at work with the radio right beside me I never heard the song so I tried again a few days later. Mat answered again!! "Hey, is this Allie he asked"...yesssss.... He said "a girl named Allie won our contest yesterday and I asked her if she was the Allie that requested Leona and she replied No with a snotty attitude! HAHA!" "Nope, not me but maybe next time!!! So when you gonna play my song." He just said "Well we need to get more requests for the song and not just from you or the interns." :-(

Well now when I call and get through Mat just laughs at me and says ok....even Freddy another one of the DJ's knows me now and he just tells me I gotta talk to MAT b/c he is the only one that can approve new songs!

Well today...to my enjoyment at 12:50pm he played it!!! And you better believe I had the radio turned up while singing every word!!!

So EVERYONE if you live in or around Houston call the radio and request it! Because that's the only way they will play Leona!! Oh and her other song Better in Time is A-MAZING TOO!! Butt Baby steps for now...just vote or request!!

If you can't tell, I really do think she WILL(in time) become the next Whitney or Maria! A little more time and vocal training and those high notes she hits so well will SOAR!

***Oh and if you are bored you need to youtube Nick Pitera. Watch the A Whole New World video first to check out his talent (give him a minute or 2 to show you what it is). Then go watch him sing Leona's song Bleeding Love! he is incredible even though you might laugh at first!

My Brain <-- My Worst Enemy

Its 9:48pm and I find myself alone for the 2nd night in a row with hours of free time to just think. Think about what? What is going on in my head these days that could possible be so important to focus hours of free contemplation time on? Well my sister is in town so every few minutes a thought of her and my niece run threw my head. Then there is T, my closest friend, who has had recent boy trouble lately but now seems to have settled down a bit with a new one - which is mainly why I am stacking up on the free time. Or.... could I spend my night thinking of myself, my sorrows, and my boy troubles BUT why not shoot for the positive and think about progress at work and my killer good looks? HA! Yes, this is a tough question but I always seem to find myself on the short end thinking only of the negative......why, oh loyal brain must you bring me down!!!

Its night two and the boy hasn't called since Sunday night. Yes, RT....and for no reason known to me. Our last talk ended well with a goodnight before bedtime. O'well, it could be worse, I could be back in the boat I was in a year and half ago. Or I could be in the middle of a strange country with a guy I barely know having the worst time of my life! Oh good lord help me!

This mostly positive, crazy energetic, southern spunk of a girl sometimes hits a low key.....and yes, I'm sad to say(or type), this is it. Don't worry though, I'm sure I'll be back on my game bright and early at 6am!

G'night all.

Chapter 2 out of The Book of Allie's Woes

OK Jamie (Oh! How Lovely) inspired this post with her recent troubles.

Just another lovely story out of The Book of Allie's Woes....

In January of '07 about a week after the X and I split my mom calls to check up on me. Well somewhere in the middle of our convo she reveals to me that she is thinking of divorcing my dad....WHAA?!?! Where did this come from? "Allie, its been brewing for some time" Well she went on to tell me she just didn't think it was right anymore and she wanted to take a trip to Tenn. to visit our horses, get away and think about things. Problem - our horse trainer, who is newly divorced, lives in Tenn.. Well my mom was quick to state they are just friends which I have ALWAYS believed to be true...but if I didn't trust my mom at this point I would think it was fishy. Plus I knew him very well and he was a cool guy.
OK back to my mom.....WHILE my life is in a million pieces all over my apartment floor my mom decided this very moment was the RIGHT time to tell me this?!?!? NOT COOL MOM!!! SO... DEVASTATED I WAS AGAIN!
Well of course I talked to my dad and he was lost and didn't understand. I know he was NOT happy that she was going to Tenn. alone too. Well nothing came of the trip but when she came back she was still gung-ho about the divorce. My dad would call me with any new information he had or when he was just sad. I got so many calls I could barely keep up and my mom was turning into a stranger I'd never met. First weird change in my mother...she got her belly button pierced. 2nd...she got long blonde hair extensions. 3rd... she bought a little black bmw sports car. Just SCREAMS MID-LIFE CRISIS if you ask me.

Well she ended up moving out and in with my Grandfather for about 6 months. Now he lives about 15 min from me. Sadly I wasn't even interested in seeing her so we never really met up while she lived there.

I'm not sure when the transition happened but I think somewhere down the road my mom realize she was going to LOOSE everything if she didn't stop her wild and free ways....so her and my dad started "dating" again.

Well I'm currently happy to report she moved back in a couple months ago and they are doing great....just in time for the bad new my dad received. I'm just glad she is there for him.

But let me tell you, this SUCKS for anyone on the outside looking in. I just wanted to SHAKE my mom and tell her to WAKE UP! WHO ARE YOU!
Its like something just got into her and she wanted to be young and free again as if she never had the ability to do it before. <-- which in a way she didn't b/c she had my sister and I both before she was 22. I couldn't imagine having to toddlers running around me right now...YICKS!

So my conclusion...Do not marry young even if you think you are ready! You haven't had enough FREE time to find yourself and enjoy the SINGLE life....
You are silly if you think this is not true and you will only find out.....hmmmm around the age of 44?!?!?! haha!

I hate to think this happens everyday and most of the couples do not get back together. Its just heartbreaking the rate of divorce these days....so sad.

just plain CUTE!

Meet Maddie, My niece. She's not quite 2y/o but has the biggest personality!

If you can't tell... She is in a kissing phase right now.

This is her on Saturday kissing my mom's dog through the fence.

boys boys boys....

ok so one of the "gmail" boys (reference previous post) sent me a "chat" while I was idle yesterday...


Cv: i know you are busy and i have a doctors appointment coming up today but later .. give me a call .. we need to talk

I'm sorry but doesn't this SCREAM "break up" of something to you....as if we were dating at all??? ok So I get back online b/c I'm super curious....

me: so I'm not busy now
whats up?
Cv: ok ... so I was thinking
you didn't have your spring break yet, right?
me: no but I don't really get one
Cv: but you could take a day off like ... let's say .. Friday or so? .. anyway .. i know you are busy with Em(my sis) and your niece and Easter is coming up .. but sometime after that ... it would be nice if we could do something .. no strings, no pressure .. just plain fun
me: ok, I could probably do that
me: I'm not sure what you are thinking
so how about you throw your ideas my way
and I say "Cool" or "Yuck"
Cv: ok .. so i saw you expressed some interest in NYC and San Fran .. those are one option ... the other is Cancun ... throwing you out of the plane .. I can do that any day :).
me: haha, ok, just us or is this a group venture?
Cv: well unfortunately .. most of my friends are on spring break as we speak
me: oh soo...what would the plan be when we get there
either NYC, San Fran, or Cancun
Cv: NYC .. there is a ton of things to do ... city never sleeps .. sightseeing, eat, drink .. etc .. same with san fran .. Cancun .. i am thinking relax on the beach and .. i have never been snorkeling .. i wanna try that


OK So this is kind of awkward for me....I've gone out with this guy a few times but we've never even kissed. He just seems more like a good friend to me now. Based on the way he asked and the comments he made...what do you think? Of course I want to go, It would be super fun! BUT...would it be bad too? Would he think more of "us" than I want. Because as of right now he KNOWS I do not want a relationship. Actually I'm kinda at a lose as to why he wants me to go....He is cool and we have fun hanging out but why would he want to pay for just a (girl) friend to go to Cancun with him? Well actually he has tones of flyer miles due to work travel and he makes pretty good money...so I guess the money isn't an issue.
** background FYI: He is 30, polish, and hasn't seriously dated in 5 yrs b/c of his work travel. He's been back and forth between NYC, San Fran, Malon Italy, and Houston.

So with all that said....opinions are needed!!


oh and RT is coming in town tonight but I don't think we are meeting up til tomorrow night.
:: small smile ::


OH BOYS BOYS BOYS...what have I gotten myself into!

lack of dating...

I've had a major gap in my dating life lately....main cause.....simply me. I'm just not interested. Right after the big break with the bf(post1) about a year and half ago I started getting real close to a guy I grew up with, RT. He was and still is my best friend but we got a little hot and heavy for a few months. To my disappointment, it starting going cold due to work and scheduling. He lived in our hometown and I was living in the big city...hour and a half drive. Well soon thereafter he got a job in the big city close to me so naturally he started staying with me a few nights out of the week. Our relationship was starting to look like a relationship... up til he revealed he was accepted back into college and he was leaving in a month to finish(3hours away). Now, we hadn't made it to the "OMG I can't live without you" stage so I was happy for him. Us being such close friends, I could be nothing less than supportive, it was definitely the right move for him. Well we talked everyday for about 2-3 weeks til the inevitable fight. It was his birthday and I had been planning on going down to see him for weeks. Well I got a brief phone call telling me I don't have to come b/c he has homework and a test to study for so he can't entertain me all weekend BUT I can still come IF I WANT. "Well do you want to see me?", I asked.... YOU READY FOR THIS....being part of the guy clan he simply replied, "I don't care." At this point my eyes about popped out of my head and I quickly ended the conversation. We didn't speak for, wow, almost a month. He's been gone for 3-4 months now and somewhere in there our daily texts turned into calls and it hasn't stopped. RT has even cracked jokes about meeting our daily call time quota. What strikes me is that he is the one calling me everyday, be it at work or on my drive home. I still haven't seen him since he left but he recently invited me to come down and go to the river with him when it warms up....oh and he might be in town this weekend, and if so, he wants to meet up.
Now, he knows I haven't dated or made out with anyone since we split ways so does this mean he is interested in me or is this just him repairing our friendship. I don't want to over step my boundaries but in all honestly, I love him to death no matter what! He is amazing and sadly even if we don't work out as a couple he is still someone I would consider "marriage material".

**my qualifications for "Marriage Material"
GREAT sense of humor - super outgoing!
Family oriented
Humble
Athletic - and NO not a gym freak! Just a little flag football here and there.
Driven - with goals and reaching for them.
Attractive - no necessarily to everyone else...just me!
Bed fun compatibility - yes this is probably what you think it is


I'm not saying I haven't dated because I'm stuck on RT, really I've had good excuses to say no, mostly other pre-set plans. **Side note...still never been asked out in person. I was asked out by two guys...wait 3!!! I know them all threw friends and the "asking out" was done over gmail!!

I've actually been enjoying all this single time with my girls. I feel like its helped me find myself.
BUT...I do seem to find myself comparing the guys that like me to him.

What do you gather from this...do I need a serious slap in the face!

Well be it with him or someone else I have to move on sometime....and soon would be good.

~a simple girl with big issues~

Sighting of my FAVORITE married Couple

Reference my very first post to get a full understanding...

SOOOOOOOOO with the luck I've been having lately it was only fitting that my weekend end with a sighting of my TWO FAVORITE PEOPLE!

I was out and about Sunday enjoying a stroll through the mall (actually I was wasting time before I met up with a friend). Well, I was in the middle of a text when I looked up at 3 people walking directly in front of me to enter the store I was passing. I first locked eyes with the X BEST FRIEND, she gave me a blank OMG look then a half smile with a "Hi". I of course smiled real big (b/c I knew I was looking HOTT with my sunburn and new hair!! HAHA!) and said "HEY" back, all before I realized THE X BF was right in front of her, almost in the store. Of course we locked eyes (a little longer than I was comfortable with) plus he had this weird big smile on his face. Not a second later I thought...this is enough, if not too much talking for me, so I continued walking and went right back to my text message. WHEEW ...never thought I would have survived the first sighting but I DID IT! and with class and a sense of ease if you ask me.

btw-the 3rd person was her 9yr old son....I thought more about him when we parted ways than either of them. I used to babysit him and all of us, including my X used to go to the park and hang out. Something tells me that poor boy is going to be all screwed up when he gets older....but I can only pray he isn't. Made me happy when he smiled at me....maybe they hadn't skewed his image of me.....YET!


OH!OH! and I have to mention...someone looked to have put on some weight haha! Her pants were looking a little tight! hehe ok I'll be nice....maybe she is prego!!haha!

My Pony Tail!

CRAZY SHORT HAIR!

Soo....this weekend was very overwhelming for me but totally worth it!

I cut 10'-12' off my head Friday to donate to Locks of Love!

Then last night my best friend, who does hair, decided she wanted to play and she dyed my hair very dark brown...almost black and put some chucky blonde highlights in my head band area.

Pic doesn't have the new color though...

BLAHHH DRAMA!! HELP!!!

Ok you ready for some drama...the drama you try so hard to stay away from but always finds its way in just to sit down right next to you!

Background info:
My best friend, T, is dating this guy, Jon. Jon used to date a casual friend of T and I's, named Ash. Basically all they did was sleep together from what Jon has told me. Oh BTW Jon and I talk a lot...he is also a very close friend of mine. Ok there are 2 other girls involved, Mel and Miss, more casual friends and one other guy, J, a VERY MARRIED guy friend who we have recently discovered has been sleeping with Ash.

ok Ready....

T and I went out Sat night and T got a little wasted, which is fine b/c I was sober. Well we met up with Ash and Miss at the bar but didn't stay long. I had T's phone texting both Jon and T's bro trying to arrange a meeting point later on in the night. Tan was talking to a guy we'd met before though J; nice guy, single but neither of us were at all interested. Well from a distance I see T grab his phone and call her cell...being that I had it. Well little did we know that Ash, her bro(gay w/ bf with him) and Miss were taking note! About 2 minutes after T called her phone I got a text from Ash's bro saying "you are a f*%$#@ joke" on T's phone. I was so lost b/c he really likes T. So then I starting think maybe the text was too me, maybe they saw I had her phone...but WHY?!?! <-- come to find out later in the night it was sent to T b/c Ash thought she was flirting with that guy who Ash apparently went out on a few dates with (weird to me since she slept with his married friend already).

So.....nothing all weekend and Tuesday rolls around!! BOOOM! The Bomb freaking EXPLODED EVERYWHERE!

Mel accompanied Miss to lunch with Jon (weird if you ask me) to tell him what they thought to be true. Miss went on to tell Jon somewhere out of all that mess Saturday night someone said T slept with J....(my guess Ash). Then it was said that T tries to steal everyone's bf or crushes(now we know this info came from Ash)

Sounds like HS right about now...huh. All these girls are older than me too!! A-MAZING!

Ok so somewhere I got drug into it. J said to Miss that he could have slept with me too if he wanted too.....haha yeah right! LOSER! So Jon, THANK GOD didn't believe it and came straight to T and I to confirm what he knew to be true. So then T goes straight to the source, Mel, who is supposed to be one of her good friends. Mel says she was just worried about T and that Miss really wanted to share her first hand testimony with Jon so that's why the lunch took place.

Now its back and forth HE SAID SHE SAID...BLAH BLAH BLAH...

Well guess what...good bye. T and I only believe T and I, so bye bye casual friends. Oh and we love Jon and no harm done to T and Jon's relationship so life will continue to move forward!

We have determined we have enough friends and know who are closest ones are....plus those girls bring only NEGATIVITY and DRAMA to our group. Plus I do not agree with their life style, which I'm not one to judge b/c everyone has their issues but their lives are just too far gone for me to handle.

PUUULLLLLEEEEZZZZ tell me you agree!?!?!

Wheeewww I can't handle another minute of this mess....

My poor girl T...I know she is having a harder time with this b/c her and Mel used to be real close. We just don't understand why she is taking their side.

"Ask the Girls", now I'm going to ask the GUYS!

So I found myself laughing this morning at a topic on the radio. The segment was called "Ask the Girls" where guys have the opportunity to question girls about any given topic. So...the question was, " Do pretty girls, like really attractive ones, have a hard time getting asked out on dates, or do they just say that?" ok I'm in no way conceited but I've been told a time or two by girls and guy friends that I am very pretty. So I tried to answer this question as honest as possible...yes, to myself, in the car. Not sure why I felt the need. Ok so this is what I came up with.
First off I'm single and have been for some time...given my first post! I also cannot remember the last time I've been out on a date. Now the tough part...yes, I've dated but I don't ever recall a guy straight asking me out on a REAL date. Every guy I've ever dated I knew for a long period of time before hand either from school, work, or through a friend. Our dating always escalated through hanging out casually with friends too. I've also been told by, I think, 2 of the guys I dated that they would have never approached me if we weren't already friends b/c when we first met they were intimidated by me, I was too pretty and they didn't feel like they had a chance.....always thought they were just saying that to be nice but now I think maybe it was true. Now going back, I know of two guys I actually ASKED out myself.....how sad is that! I guess as soon as they see I am a humble, nice, crazy, outgoing, fun person they SHOW their interest a little more.

So after all that I answered the question with a big YES! I think guys just are not like they used to be, old fashioned gentlemen...or maybe I haven't found the right one yet.

**(off topic of radio question) But here is my problem...I don't want to date people I KNOW anymore...b/c its obviously not working out. I just end up wasting a couple years of my life b/c we are just better off friends or they fall for my best friends...haha ok sorry had to poke fun at myself!

So any guys that are reading...I pose a question. Based off my picture alone...do I look intimidating? Would you have the courage to approach me and ask me out if you were interested? NOW BE HONEST! I know that this is a blog and people tend to be a little more open but visualize yourself in the position where I'm in front of you....what do you do?

haha this should be fun!


So...for now this small town southern bombshell will keep her hopes high and her eyes open!! :-)

1 step forward 10 steps back!

With each new day I've grown even more excited about life and the new adventures I've decided to pursue....up 'til yesterday.

I was having a great day...regardless of the horrid rain. I was in Circuit city buying a new TV and getting a new video card for my computer (Yes I've been living in the stone ages for a few weeks b/c my video card burnt up!). Well, as I was standing in line my mom calls. "Do you have time to talk?" she asks. "Well give me a few minutes and I will", "ok". I get in my car to head home when my mom goes on to tell me about my Dad's multiple doctor visits...which she previously told me was "just" for his high blood pressure. "Just a cover up" she said b/c my Dad wasn't ready to reveal the truth to anyone, for fear of being disowned or ostracized. I was shocked and so sad all at the same time. Ok I know at this point you want to know what it is that he has but I'm not ready to reveal it right now especially since my dad is not comfortable with it. All I can say is it is chronic and depending on the progression, which will be revealed in his upcoming test results, there is a high % chance he could die from it. This would be the point in time where I started bawling my eyes out. My mom just said I don't want you to take this lightly b/c it is very serious, we just don't know the severity yet.

So my upbeat energetic mood has quickly been replaced by worry and sadness....

Please keep my Daddy in your prayers.

Me in pure form...

Ok since my first post was so drab...I'm writing a new, more upbeat post on my first day.

Its a beautiful sunny day and I'm actually quite chipper today!
I'm not sure if its because I'm in the running for a promotion at work or if I'm FINALLY just happy with where I am in my life. Being single is not as bad as people make it out to be. I haven't even been on a date in months but I'm glad. I've had more time to figure out who I am, alone... just me! I've grown closer than ever with my friend, my mom and my sister who I used to hate back in HS! haha Its amazing how time and space can help you grown together!

At first I found myself sitting at home on the couch watching TV because I didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. Now today I look at my week and I don't have one free day! A meeting tonight, a dinner date with friends tomorrow, rodeo or wine tasting on Friday (havent made up my mind...nice to have choices), and another wine tasting on Saturday. Blows me away at how my life has changed and for the better in the past few months. Its not all about a guy...its about me and the things I enjoy and what I want to do. I love this, I love being single!

So this is me in pure form...and I'm happy!
:-D
(Me smiling REALLY BIG!)

A Fresh Start

Ok this being my first post...I'm going to go all out.

2007 in a nutshell was a BAD year for me. Where to begin?? How about in Jan? Ok so I started 2007 going to my best friends wedding with my boy friend of two years. The man I knew I was going to marry and we had both made that very clear to his family and mine. Maybe looking at rings clued everyone in. Well now is about the time I should tell you about one of my good girl friends who happened to live across the way from me in my apartment complex, therefore we saw each other often. Plus she went to the same church me and the BF went to.
Well about 2 weeks into January the bf and I started arguing over weird petty stuff and decided maybe we should take some time and space to make sure we still want to get married. So I laid low but we still talked everyday...and even saw each other ofter.

Well about 2-3 weeks later I walk to my car to go to the store and to my horror I see who else but my bf (or whatever he is at this point) sneaking up the BACK side of my friends apartment building. Well since she lives on the font side and I knew at this point he was going to see her, I waited down stairs for him to walk back forward on the 3 floor so I could see him knock on her down....and about a minute later there he was! I was sitting in my car at this point and I didn't even have to honk...he saw me, he knew I was pissed and what did he do. He waved a very nervous low wave. Now I drive a pretty fast sports car so lets just say I speed off with a lead foot!!!

I was so sad and so upset and so devastated! My bf and my good friend...I would have never guessed. Maybe it was the fact that she has a 7 year old son or the fact that he would talk negatively about her and how she lives her life and now he is DATING HER! Why are men such wimps....no balls to tell me the truth or to even separated himself enough to make me believe we were not still getting married! I had no clue.

So lets move ahead about 5 months, I decided to move far away btw! Broke my lease to do so.
ok so I get a phone call from the x's old best friend who YES dated my old good friend. We used to go on double dates. Well his news was all but calming. THEY WERE ENGAGED! And there were pic on their myspace of the ring...well to my shock that ring sure looked a lot like the one I picked out!!!!! So devastated AGAIN!

ok skip forward to Dec. 1. I get another phone call from the same guy. They are getting married this weekend!!!! WHAT?!?!? It hasn't even been a YEAR since we split.
DEVI STATED AGAIN!!!!

Then last but not least I go to their myspace at the end of the month to see if they posted wedding pics just too see what she looked like...b/c I was mad and curious and wanted to find something to pick fun of! Well I was shocked to see they had posted pics from their Honeymoon and WHERE THEY WENT!! To Banff, Alberta Canada!! Where we had gone on a trip together with his parents just a year earlier!!! WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO TAKE YOUR NEW WIFE THERE?!?!?!
Whats weird is she knew all of this b/c she was my friend! She also new what the ring I picked out looked like. Why did she not have a problem with any of this?!?!? I know why b/c she just wanted to get married and he is controlling and wanted everything the same as how we had planned it!!! PSYCHO!!

Ok vent over...don't judge me too much this was a very traumatic experience....worse than any drama movie I have ever seen...and this is just the short version.