Mind vs Heart

RT has been calling me a lot lately. Yes, we've been best friends for a long time but its obvious some of our feelings are still there...and deep. We talk mostly about his school, and crack a few jokes but somehow dating came up the other night. I'm not a lair by any means so I decided to suck it up and tell him I went on a blind date with someone and we are now casually dating. He seemed speechless as if I had cheated on him. It was so weird. We got off the phone quickly and then the texts started...as if it were easier for him to be sad or disappointed through a text.
RT: I'm not mad. You are right, you can't just wait around.
Me: I just wanted to be honest. You are my best friend and I don't want to jeopardize that.
RT: That means a lot. Thank you.

I was seriously crushed. It was like I had chosen another boy over him...when in all reality I didn't know he was one of my choice (and still don't).

I like Curt but at this point our relationship is nowhere near RT and I's but I still want to see where it will go. I swear my Heart is launching an all out war with my Mind. Help!

O'well, like I told RT I can't just wait around for him to figure out where he is in his life so I'm going to continue to have fun and date. AND if something deeper and stronger comes along....well then it just wasn't meant to be.....right????

comfortable

WHOOOHOOO!!!! For the first time in my post college life I'm not penny pinching, paying my bills last minute, living without cable and Internet, or starving myself.

I'm one of those college graduates that was somewhat taken care of in college but let completely go the day after I received my diploma. So I got my job, signed a lease and started MY LIFE on my own pretty quick. I learned that having a house phone was a complete waste of money I didn't have, roman noodles were my best friend and my apartment complex was run by IDIOTS b/c they gave me 4 months of free cable I definitely couldn't afford(HBO and all)!! Don't worry I didn't complain!! hehe shhhhh....

So, I've finally made it to "comfortable"! I can have everything I need and some of what I want and not feel stressed over tomorrows dollar. I cannot express to you how excited I am to finally make it to this point in my life. I love being able to just go shopping, buy my friends a drink, or cover the whole tab without feeling the heat from my checking account. Its definitely been a long hard road to this point....didn't help that I dated broke guys so when I wanted to go out I always had to pay for myself or both of us! Let just say A LOT HAS CHANGED!!! haha!
~*~I'm not saying she's a gold digger.... but she ain't messin' with no broke n***a.~*~
(Yeap! Kanye is here on Friday and T and I are so there!!)

So now I'm looking to start an online savings account to start putting away some money for the bike (might wait a little while longer before I buy) . I want to put a pretty nice down payment down on it.

OK SO THIS IS A QUESTION FOR YOU! I need great recommendations for online savings accounts...in the states of course. I wouldn't even be sad to leave my current bank. My checking account services are not so great anymore.
TIA!!!!

Grey's Anatomy "Where the Wild Things Are"

So I think Friday is now Analyze, Review, and/or Vent about Grey's Day!

So did I mention I HATE Rose!! EWWWWWW!!!! Get McThorny off the screen! She has only been on 5 dates with Derek and she is already throwing the LOVE word out there (not to him but still). She is nuts and I don't like her one bit! McThorny...I like it! From now on Rose is McThorny. OK So when Derek kissed McThorny in front of Mere I about threw the remote at the TV. Bad idea...so to be prepared for next week I will keep soft things around me to throw. Some ideas? Pillows?? No, too big, could easily tip my TV over. Marshmallows?! No, they might stick, eww. I got it!! Paper Napkins!! YES! When I get stressed I can ball them up in my hand then throw them when I start getting an anxiety attach! PERFECT! HAHA!

ok back to the topic!

I think Derek is still so in love with Mere. If I were to guess, I bet they get back together before the session finally especially since he has to work close with Mere for her new project.

I'm sorry but Izzy is getting on my nerves. I'm not sure if its because I see Katherine Heigl everywhere or if she is just annoying. Izzy just went nuts in this episode. Poor old fart got a pointless scare all because Izzy though she could win the contest. Just Ridiculous! And I don't know what it is about her but I do NOT think she is cute...sorry.

I still think McSteamy and McDreamy are amazing! Mcsteamy is definitely winning over points with his persistant nagging about McThorny! Lets hope McDeamy listens!

Til next week.....

Love,
McHottie...hehe

Not Your Typical Chick!

So I have a love....a love of speed!

This is my car....Need I say more...

Now, I've had a bug for a good 6 months now for a new toy and since my birthday is coming up in June I think I might buy this new toy! What do you think??

HEHE...isn't it pretty?? I'm in love. It's the same bike my mom has but the sport version. Its a very popular bike for woman so I think it will be a good starter for me.

Yes I'm nuts! and definitely not your typical chick!

Its about that time.....

GREY'S STARTS TOMORROW NIGHT!
One thing you might not know about me is I have a strong addiction to Grey's Anatomy!! I laugh, cry, and scream at the TV as if it was my life.

I can't express to you my desire for...
-Meredith and Derek to be together
-Callie to just go away.
-George to stop hopping from one girl to the next. Gosh he's not even cute...yuck!
-Slone(McSteamy) to jump out of the TV and relieve me of all my sexual frustrations!!
-Izze to STOP falling for every guy that gives two sh*ts about her. BLAH!
-Alex to just grow up! Male whore!
-Christine to never change! If she lived in Houston, she would be my best friend!
-Slone to make out with me...oh did I say that already. I would totally take McDreamy and McSteamy at the same time! Yummy!
-OH AND ROSE...who the hell are you!! Leave Derek alone...his heart is taken! Stupid nurse! Grrr...



Ok, that's all. I'm so excited life in the ER is starting back up. Oh how I've missed it!

Fluffy....

I'm enjoying dating.....maybe a little too much.
Between....
Las Alamedas - Dinner last Sunday
Nippon Japanese Sushi - Dinner Friday...mmmm...
Chocolate Bar - Desert Friday night - WOW JUST WOW! You have to check this place out!
Perry's Bar - drinks w/ T and her date - Pianist in the Bar was amazing!
Baba Yega's- Brunch Saturday - Love eating on the patio!
Grottos - Double Date w/ his friends Saturday night. - wish the Ferrari outside was mine!
Sullivan's - Drinks with more of his friends. Live salsa music in the Bar! Too much FUN!
....I may have eaten a little much!

So needless to say I've become a little fluffy! I'm soooooo eating good all week!
Don't worry about me though I did get SOME MUCH NEEDED SLEEP SUNDAY! While the boys played golf!

BTW If you are ever in Houston, I would totally recommend ALL of these restaurants!! SO YUMMY! (but some may be a little pricey)

Undate on us...So far things are super fun and I really like all of his friend!! <-Which is a must!
Oh and T approves! haha!

YOU ASKED RS27!!!

Only because I can't stop looking at him...so why not share what I'm enjoying! Thats what a blog is all about....right?!?!?!

And this is only a pic! Those dimples and that smiles are amazing in person!

:-)

::completely flustered::

Mental Case!

I am still completely off kilter!! This is EASILY proven by my retarded blog comments this morning.

I'll be honest, I was emailed a pic of Curt and I can't stop looking at it!! I'm a mental case! So I've been trying my hardest to focus on my blog reading material but I guess I haven't put enough focus on my comments.

1st comment was on Des' Blog:
Allie: uuuck! We had geese in the lake behind our house growing up...OMG! The crapped everywhere and squawked nonstop! So annoying!Oh and they too where SUPER FAT! All 6 were bigger than our Dog which was a lab!
April 17, 2008 11:38 AM

My reply to myself:
wow I didn't proof that comment before pushing Enter...They crapped**They too were super fat***I need to go back to school :-(

2nd comment was on Elpato's blog:
Allie: NOOO I can't read morse code...nor espanol unless it's just:
no bueno - no good! (but I never say no good I always say no bueno -it should so be part of the english language!)
Holla - HI!!
como esta - how are you
pollo - chicken (I'm always so proud of myself when I go eat Mexican and I can say this to the waiter! haha!)
yeah that's all I got! And I live in TX too! CRAP I'm screwed!

Elpato's reply to me:
Elpato: uh, you are hilarious. you wrote that you only knew a few words in spanish, one of which is "holla?" for hi...that's "hola""holla" means "holler back yo!"
if I'm not mistaken. I seriously laughed out loud, thanks I needed that...
April 17, 2008 9:47 AM

My reply:
Allie:crap I totally knew that! Guess I was listening to too much Gwen Stefani....Holla back girl!! haha! Glad I gave you a good laugh though...I love doing that!
April 17, 2008 9:53 AM

Oh dear lord I'm in for a long day....
Feel free to make fun of me as you wish. I actually do enjoy being the source of everyone's laughter!

fog

What is wrong with me?!?! I keep zoning out and getting completely sidetracked from work! I don't even hear the phone ring til the 3rd or 4th ring and by then Jesse, my Co-worker has already answered it. I need a vacation... But something tells me this weekend might cure a few of these actions, WAIT, or make them worse! Crap! Something tells me I'm in for a long month or late night phone calls, random romantic text, and goofy at work but not working emails.

I'm trying so hard to take this one day at a time but the feeling of someone being so into me is overwhelming, flattering, and so missed. Not only that but he seems too good to be true...yes girls, one of those guys! He is so romantic! So humble! And So HOTT!! Whats the catch...what am I missing? Does he have a bad temper? A gambling problem? A cheater? All questions I managed to ask in a joking manner and still got answered....No, No, and No.

What do you do when you are face to face with a guy who doesn't play the typical "I like you but I'm not going to show it" games. Its throwing me off kilter...bad! He's even admitted to me that he almost got engaged once and she broke it off right before he bought the ring. This was years ago but he confessed it was probably the most devastating moment in his life. He was so vulnerable and so open. I have to say it was very refreshing.

This weekend's plans are already set. He's working extra hard to get all his work done in NY so he can head out early either Thur. night or Fri. morning. He wants to have dinner again, just the two of us, somewhere quiet and small. I'm curious to find out where but he said its a secret- he wants to keep me on my toes. Then Saturday is booked up with a Pool Party at his friend's house and a night out on the town with T!

I feel like my blog is about to take a sharp right hand turn into Sappy Fairytale Novel land.

WATCH OUT! I'm falling....hard and fast.

Do you find loud bass annoying? (Stereo Bass for people like rs27 & so@24)

loud, noisy, obtrusive, annoying, extreme, intense, powerful, and only somewhat musical.

I'm talking about those super ghetto 1982 Caddys with a $2,000+ sound system installed!
I have to laugh sometimes when it is obvious that more money was spent on the stereo than the car. Its as if they want everyone for at least 1/2 mile down the road to know that they are on their way. Its better than a siren, don't you think? Maybe we could put these things on our Emergency Care Units or Fire Trucks.
SERIOUSLY, Nobody needs so much power that their stereo in their car is louder in my living room than my tv, which is actually in my living room! My sanctuary has been violated!

bump...bump...bump...bump...bump...bump...bump...bump...bump...
"D*MMIT, I MISSED MY FAVORITE PART OF THE MOVIE!!"

REALLY all I can hear is a million rattles going on under the hood and truck. I'm just waiting for the vehicle's fasteners to vibrate lose so I can watch the car fall apart while driving down the road. BWHAHA! That would be so awesome!

Too bad they won't be able to hear that beautiful bump sound in 5 years...idiots!

GOOD FREAKING MORNING! :-)

So this morning's text convo:

Curt - Good Morning!
Me - Hey you! G'morning!
Curt- I can't wait to see you again
Me- Aw...now everyone is going to make fun of me all day AGAIN!Yes, Saturday is going to be super fun! I can't wait.(My co-worker's made fun of me yesterday for being so HAPPY!)
Curt - Sorry Saturday is not going to be good enough for me, what are you doing Friday night?
Me - Look what you did! My cheeks hurt b/c I can't stop smiling! And IF you can make it back on Friday we will definitely do something.
Curt - OK! I have to work now, talk to you later.

Guys...I seriously have a problem! I haven't liked someone like this is a VERY LONG TIME! Is this weird? I don't even know him!

Floating...

Wow what an eventful weekend, I'm not even sure where to start.

Ok so we ended up not floating the river Saturday b/c it was way too windy and every time the sun went under the clouds we FROZE....so we backed out.

Saturday night was fun though. We walked 4th and 6th street til we settled on the 3rd story of "name I don't remember" club. We were there for all of 5 minutes when 2 guys asked if we wanted to join their party and drink off their bottle....SURE! They were really nice and pretty cute but I knew that I would never see them again even if I gave them my number (they lived far!) so when asked I politely declined. GLAD I DID TOO!!! For the following reason...hehe

I missed a phone call Saturday afternoon. Well I had a few drinks and didn't recognize the # so LATE that night I sent a text, "Hey, who is this". Well when I didn't get a response by the time we got home I figured who ever it was they were already asleep. This proved to be the case when texting started at 8:30 the next morning.

Curt- Hey A, this is Curt, my friend Brooke just got back from her honeymoon and told me I should call you.
Me-Oh Hey! Sry I'm in Austin but how about I call you when we are driving back?
Curt-sounds like a plan

Well, I text him one more time in the middle of our drive to see if he wanted to go ahead and meet up tonight since I knew I had no food in my frig!I was so anxious to meet him I just wanted to get it over with. I wasn't even nervous...but this could have been b/c I was EXHAUSTED!

Curt - Sounds good where and when?
Me - How about El Tiempo at 8?
Curt - Time is good, El Tiempo is good but have you ever been to Las Alemedes?
Me - No but T tells me its really good (as T also told me its super pricey!)
Curt - T has Great taste
Me- HAHA! T says "YES I DO!" ok so I'll call you around 7 to set the exact time b/c I still have to get pretty! Ha!
Curt - Take your time, no hurry. I'm good either way.

So there we had it... our blind date was set!

WELL!!! I called him just before 8 to let him know I was ready but there was a little problem. My finger wouldn't stop bleeding b/c I reached into my makeup bag and my tweezers jabbed me right in the cuticle. It was seriously gushing and all I could think was JUST MY LUCK! He asked why I didn't put a band aid on it and I had to admit I was out b/c T used them all when she had a blister a few weeks ago. How lame!!! So the sweet boy offered to bring me a band aid.
So at 8pm sharp he called to let me know he was down stairs. I walked out to see him standing beside the passanger door of his pretty gray BMW. He asked me how I was and then gave me a band aid so I could throw out the blood covered Kleenex I was using. Oh and I guess I should tell you, HE WAS HOTT!!! I was very pleased...to say the least!

OK so dinner was great, conversation was entertaining, and we were having a really good time. This was apparent when the restaurant staff dimmed the lights to politely let us know they were closing down. So we decided to continue our date at a small quiet pub close to my apartment.
I couldn't help but ask a few questions, since he is 32 and single (but ladies let me tell you...he looked nothing over 26). I told him I hadn't been out on a date in REALLY long time so I wanted to know when the last time he had. Thinking he would say months...I was shocked to hear:

Curt- I actually went on another blind date last friday! My friend girlfriend wanted me to meet her sister
Me-(giggling)Well, how did it go?
Curt-she didn't really blow up my skirt!
Me-(LAUGHING REALLY HARD) Well , How's your skirt now?
Curt-I'm not sure yet.

So the laughs continued as we learned more about one another but it had to end somewhere. So close to midnight we headed back to my place. Sitting in the car we expressed how much fun we had, hugged and said our good byes - all after we set up our 2nd date next Friday. (I would have chosen sooner but he is going out of town for work all week :-(

So I headed upstairs and remembered I forgot to ask him about his skirt again so I decided to text him one last time.

Me- Oh Yeah! How's the skirt?
Curt - Hovering about chest high...thanks for a wonderful evening, looking forward to next time.

Oh and this morning I felt really bad b/c I knew he had to get up super early for work so I text AGAIN! (yes I text a lot! to everyone!)

Me -I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt this morning. I hope you're up and somewhat lively.
Curt - You are too cute, no worries I wanted to stay out, the company was compelling and besides its nothing some coffee can't fix!

So....I'm floating right now.

TGIF!!

Leaving work in T minus 30min!! YAY!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

MWAH!

Austin, here we come...

Ok so T decided she wants to go out in Austin this weekend. I'm totally up for it but when I go out in Austin I like to get dressed up and GO OUT! So we talked for a while about what night to go and of course what to wear! Well I've had this "thing" in my closet for some time that I haven't really had the balls to wear...yet! So T assured me this was the perfect time!



What do you think my chances are of at least MAKING OUT with someone this weekend?? Guess it won't be too hard since the boy might be going too.

**picture was taken on my phone when I first bought the corset...and yes I sent it to the boy to tease him. HeHe!

compatiblility...

So two young (for lack of a better word) Contractor helpers came in on Tuesday to pick up their supplies and I started chatting with them as they were waiting. I'm a friendly person as I've mentioned before so the convo was nothing more than the normal customer/employee chit chat.
Well 10min go by and the phone rings, (yes the annoying phone) and it's him.

Joe- Hey, I was just in there picking up my order
Me- Yes
Joe - I bought the yellow crew driver..
Me- Yes
Joe- Oh, ok. Well I was wondering if you wanted to go out and play pool with me one night?
Me- (SPEECHLESS) umm.... wow that's so flattering but ummm.... (Beware Lie ahead) I just got out of a serious relationship and I promised myself I wouldn't date for a while. But Thank you so much...that was very sweet of you to ask.
Joe - Oh ok well have a nice day.
Me- ok you too.

OK I absolutely had no clue which one he was but still this is where I stand and why "the lie" was used. Things I've learned from guys in the past:

-Don't date guys that are shorter than you....b/c no matter what they say at the beginning the insecurities always come out later.
-Don't ever date a guy with a lower income than yours - same insecurities come out later.
-Don't date a guy with a much lower education than you - conversations and interest tend to be way different. Now this isn't with all but I've found it with most. Plus this tends to run hand in hand with the income.
-He must be close to my equal in regards to interests, life style, and morals...and he must be confident! Not perfect just confident.

None of these things have to do with looks. If you truly understand me you will see they shape a persons personality and compatibility with you.... Long term relationship compatibility. I'm at the age where I won't date someone I know there's no long term possibility with. Looks are just the cover of the book...and I must have a great novel to know I will stay interested past the intro. Know what I mean??

Ok so if you are still following me, you can put two and two together and see that no matter which guy this was I'm not going to be interested long term because...
1. he is most likely only a high school graduate.
2. if you heard the way he spoke it was obvious he didn't get much from that high school education
3. I don't live on this side of town (I'm helping at a branch that's an hour away from my house)
4. not sure playing pool with him and his friend will make me be more interested
5. him being a "helper" makes me not even want to know his income.
6. something told me he would only want to play pool or hang with his buddies....not go out on the town and hang out with my friends.

OK right about now, you're probably thinking I'm being a total snob! but really I'm not, its completely rational. I'm a college graduate. I don't make a lot of money but I can support myself without help from a roommate or family. I like to read and learn. And I hate petty fights....like "do you have to wear your heals tonight" or "you don't have to pay for me! I just won't go".
I know dating for me has come to a halt lately but I think I've been pretty accurate on my dating choices looking back on the relationships I've had in the past.....1yr, 3yrs, 2yrs, 1yr. So I must be doing something right. Now although they didn't work out they still had great potential! Sometimes there's one big obstacle you just can't over come.

So what is your opinion...honestly. I'm curious to hear if anyone things I'm being WAY too picky!


Thanks to everyone for your well wishes!! I'm feeling much better today but that probably has a lot to do with me sleeping a good 10hrs and coming into work late.

I'm sick... (2 updates)

My symptoms @ 9am...

-I hate the sound of the phone ringing
-I want to throw up
-I don't want to work
-I've lost my appetite (which is a bad sign! B/c I LOVE food!)
-I have a head ache
-I want to throw up
-I feel sleepy
-I'm pale (so my co-worker says)
-I haven't laughed all morning (if you know me...this is a bad sign too)
- did I mention I want to throw up!

Thinkin' about leaving work soon....I hate work, I hate the phone, I hate noise, God help me!! I'm not going to make it another hour!

update @ 11:00am - didn't eat breakfast but tried to drink a sprite....bad idea, most of its in the toilet now. :-( Going home in 5...

udate @ 12:30pm - I'm home and I'm bored.....thats all. nap time?

More updates...

Ok First the most obvious! My page makeover! Only proves I have way too much time on my hands but I'm very please with how it turned out.

Next, a Daddy update. His first test came back and it was clear. Had something to do with the brain. I don't get into all the technical stuff, I'm just glad it was good news!!

My Girl T and I are going to float the river this weekend...WHOOHOO!! Lets hope we see some drunk crazies so I have some good blog material Monday! But I would totally settle for hot, half naked guys hitting on us....

And my other girl, TAYLOR has decided to bless the blogging world with her presence!! YAY!! Join me in Welcoming her @ blindspotbella

Out with the old, in with the....

Ok I'm done with every gmail guy and past relationship I've ever been with. Midway through my day, while baking in the extremely hot Texas sun, I decided I'm wiping the slate clean. In all honesty if I feel nothing for these boys now, I'm probably not going to change my mind in the future. So while in deep thought I find myself listening in to a phone conversation to my right. A young very cute blond girl chatting away with her mother about how amazing this weekend was. How everything came out perfect and how pleased "they" were. She mentioned she was exhausted from last nights event and that she was relaxing by the pool today and heading out first thing in the morning with "him".
I mixed all the info up in my head only to conclude she has just gotten married. So as soon as her conversation ended, being the friendly outgoing person I am I decided to ask her. " I'm sorry I couldn't help but overhear you talking.....did you just get married?" She replied with the biggest smile on her face "Yes!" With congrats, I went on to ask details about her special day. BTW her name is Brooke. I'm such a sap and a romantic so I went ahead and asked about how they met and feel in love. She said it was pretty short and simple, her friend called her up and told her she had to meet her boyfriend's best friend... so to end the story, he is now her Hubby. See I told you it was short!!
We talked for a good 10-20 min about her wedding when she started to shift the conversation over about me, Yes, boring single me. She of course asked the infamous question "Oh why...you are so cute and seem like such a doll" HAHA well here's the short version of my "story"(post 1)
She expressed her disbelief as most do and went on to tell me that I seem to have made it out ON TOP! And all I could say was "Thanks, I like to think so....I'm just not a fan of dating yet" She reply, "I don't think anyone really is, I'm glad its over for me."
So out of nowhere she says..."you know what? I would love to pay if forward.... My Hubby has a great, very cute, single guy friend and if you are up for it I would love to set you two up on a blind date." Without thinking I said, "Wow, Ummm... Ssssuuuure???(with a half confused, maybe this could be good but I don't know, look on my face) Why not, I have nothing to lose." I've never tried it before so if it fails miserably at least I'll have a good horror story to post about...haha!

Well around 8pm I received a text saying "Talked to him and he wants to go out". So I replied "Awesome, well I hope you two have a great trip and I will talk to you when you get back, Congrats again!"

So Brooke returns on Friday and I'm not sure where or when this little shin-dig is going down but I'm kind of anxious now. She is a very cute girl so I'm assuming she has good taste in guys plus she seemed to know the guy well so I'm assuming also that I'm his type....wow what expectations am I set up for?! or set up to fail...crap!! I don't even know what a REAL date consist of. I'm a lounge on the couch with ice cream in hand watching a romantic comedy kind of girl. DUDE, I'm so screwed!

Any words of advice...or should I totally just back out? :-/



pic story: My mom decided she wanted last minute photos of everyone so in the middle of my sister's photo shoot she snapped this one of me trying to entertain Maddie in bluebonnets.

Update...

So my friend got the "GREAT" News...That's all.

Oh and don't let me forget to mention I HATE young male black cops...well ONE!!!! (**not at all because he is black...I just want to decribe the jerk in detail)

I got lost trying to meet up with my friend yesterday in her part of town. Well I went too far down the hwy and had to turn around. Well just my luck, right after I took the U-turn and got back up to speed a cop flashed his lights. All I could think about was did I see a speed limit sign?? CRAP! So this young guy comes up to my window and asks why I was speeding. I replied, "I didn't know I was b/c I'm lost." He took my insurance and DL back to his car. At his return he said he was siting me for going 55 in a 45. How THE HELL was I supposed to know, I swear everyone around me was going at least 50 too. O'well.

So I just signed it but went ahead and asked him if he knew where my destination was. He said "well go past "this" and take the next right." Well I was totally confused so I asked is "this" a street or a community? He said," Ma'am go past "this" and take the next right." I WAS LIVID! What the hell are you saying dude! Did you even hear my question...did you not hear me just say I'm not from this side of town!! How and I supposed to know what "this" is!!

and to cap off his perfect rookie cop stereotypical persona he says," oh and you can only take defensive driving once a year and I saw that you took it last year." I was like WHAT!?! Its been years..."what does it say?!?!?" and he just replied, "Oh yeah it did say '05". EEEWWWWW I wanted so badly to say "are you a rookie because IT SHOWS!!!!"

ok If a young girl is alone at night and reveals to you, the cop, that she is lost would you continue to try and intimidate her and be rude?!?! If you say Yes, I'm so kicking you in the face!!

vent over!

And No Matt, I'm wearing the Black ones AGAIN!
The Tan shoes don't really go with my work attire. The black ones don't either but at least they kinda match. :-)

watch your step...

there are a lot of things going on here...

First I get an email from my best friend this am.

"I've got an appt with the dr at 4pm because I think I might be pregnant. I'm FREAKING out!! What do I do if I am? I have to keep it but then what?? OMG I'm so scared."

WOW! That came from left field. So I guess I'm in for some REALLY Good news at 4 or some Life changing sh*t!

Second, I'm sad to say My sis and niece are going home this weekend.

Things I won't quickly forget:

-the first time Maddie said my name

-the enormous crap she took that sent a long lasting aroma around my apartment for almost an hour.

-Maddie choosing me over Mommy!! More than once!! She loves me! What can I say, I ROCK!

-Trying to feed the ducks but realizing the bread was disappearing quicker than we could get the duck to the shore. Maddie was hungry!

I will miss her more than anything!! But already have my trip planned to visit them in July!

And...the Boy has continued to call and is now asking when I'm coming down to float the river with him. Always leaving my answer open and questionable, I honestly don't know what to think or do. I've read everyone's thoughts in my previous posts and I DON'T want to go if he just wants me to want him...and that's it! Blahh....the thought of that pisses me off!

Lastly....I'm happy and feeling cute today because I got some sweet new shoes yesterday. NOOO...not high priced Gucci stilettos. Actually these cool kicks came from Target!! And guess how much they were??? You never will......$12.99. And I don't care who bashes me. I don't buy just for the label. I liked these shoes so much I bought the other design too. AND YES, I'm wearing the black ones with my dress slacks today...who dares to say something?!?!

ok that's all for today!

I'm AWAKE and ALIVE!

So I made it through the day yesterday but not before something almost REALLY bad happened to me.

So I left work a little early and was driving down a 6 lane(3x3) road in the middle lane( not a freeway, more like a business road). The light in front of me turned red and there was already a line of cars in my lane so I decided to move into the right lane where there was only 1 car in front of me. So I turned on my blinker and progressed slowly to the right....when WHOOSH! The Plymouth Prowler that was previously behind me was doing the same move I was but at a much faster rate of speed. The woman was so fast and I was so slow that my front right bumper touched her back left tire. There was a little noise but I didn't feel anything...regardless I followed her to the Walgreen's parking lot to check out the damage, if any. We got out and I apologized...even though in my mind I knew she was driving WAY too fast and did the same thing I did minus the blinker! Still I knew I was sleepy and didn't catch her quick move which on a good day I'm sure I would have. So viewing the damage I was pleased to see nothing on her little buggie of a car. There was a rubber mark that she wiped right off. Then looking at my poor baby Z there was a bigger mark but I was glad to see it was just black ArmorAll from her tire since she had just left the car wash. THANK YOU GOD!! This was seriously the kick I needed to get my butt home alive! I swore at work I knew something bad was going to happened...and knowing how sleepy I was I figured it would be something in the car. I'm just so grateful that was it...and I wasn't on the main HWY.

Lesson for today...be grateful!

And Here's to my awesome Territory Sales Manager who brought in McD's for breakfast!! WHOOHOO! YUM!